As I believe in my shy and humble nature, find talking with strangers quite uncomfortable, my main objective is to become more confident and outgoing person. The issue is not how I appear in front of others, as I recently was complimented about my presentation skills and how well I handle making connection to the audience or the person I am speaking to. The most crucial obstacle that I need to get over, is the high level of stress that I fell inside. It peaks right before the presentation and then fades with each minute, making me more relaxed and sure of my skills. That is why I often take a lead in this kinds of group assignments. My idea is, if I do in on a regular basis, it becomes less scary, becoming to fell more natural to me. So far I think that the plan is working.
Since I am only a beginner in the field of media design, I highly value the knowledge of the teachers I have. However, I tend to only ask them for feedback on things that are more complete, further in the design process, because I feel that asking about little things when I am not sure where to go with this yet is not worth it because the design is probably bad. I need to change that approach and trust more that the teacher’s feedback will help me progress in the right way, not only bring me back to the beginning. My objective for the rest of the semester is to get good amount of individual feedback, on both early designs and more complex work.
As the designing part of the projects I had were in my opinion the most interesting I would like to go towards a profession that lets me use my creativity and imagination to make stunning images, designs and animations. In order to get closer to that goal I worked with various tools available in the Adobe Creative Package, not only the software I already know. What is more, as the inital stage of the design process is very important and the quickest way to make early iterations is by using pen and paper I decided to do a small drawing challenge that will help me increase my sketching skills.
I want my future profession to focus on the designing, working with tools like Adobe Photoshop, Illustrator, After Effects or Premiere Pro. In short, I want to spend my working hours on media production, however I would also like to have the level of knowledge that allows me to translate my visual work into a programmable website. During the development project I was able to make the account dashboard prototype and FIGMA and translate it in almost a perfect way to HTML and CSS. However I did not take part in creating website elements that included databases and utilizing flask, since I did not feel confident in working on them during the introduction phase and after the development project I assured myself that this is a field of IT that I do not connect my future to. Helping out my colleagues with their work proved confusing to me and my knowledge level is not high enough yet to make valuable contributions.
During the Project X work, I was working with a client whoose working hours differ significantly with the hours during which I would like to work. Due to the fact, that I had to work on the design in the mornings and a part of the afternoon, I would like to rest and relax during the evenings. In this situation, it was not the case since my client usually starts his stream at 9pm and finishes it around 3am or 4am. The best way to receive feedback from both the streamer and the community was to attend the evening streams and quickly adjust the design so I could get further feedback on the same stream. This gave me a feeling of constant working, which at the end of the project was very exhausting and made me realize that this is not the type of work I want to do in the future. I would prefer to work during the office hours of a typical 9am to 5pm company and be able to relax in the evenings, puting away the design tools for the rest of the day.
During one of the workshops that focused on the Learning Outcome 5: Personal Leadership I was encouraged to look up the things I value the most and then ask the people I worked with about the values they associate me with. The results that I got, combining those two lists showed that both me and my colleagues perceive me as a very organised person with good leadership skills and very attention grabbing presentation skills. The values that I listed and they did not know of were perfectionism, helpfulness, and friendlyness. There were some things that I also had to mention that were downsides of my personality and for those I mentioned doing things at the last moment, beeing insecure about my work and my skills and often experiencing high stress levels.
What is more, thanks to the 16 Personalities website i was able to conduct an indepth test that could validate or question the findings on my personality type. These are the Results that I got.
